UPDATE 2/08

It has been a long time since I have blogged. A lot has happened in that time and some days I just couldn't bring myself to sit long enough to blog or I just didn't have the time. I will try to do a broad update here since so much time has passed since the last blog.

As you know from the last blog we were trying to have one more baby. I got pregnant in 10/04 and lost that baby at 11 weeks to a molar pregnancy. That left us not only devastated from losing the baby but we then found out that it was a twin pregnancy gone wrong. So, now we have lost 2 babies (even though we only saw one baby on the ultrasound and didn't find out that it was supposed to be twins until later). I was trying to get over that when my obstetrician called me one day almost a month later to tell me about the molar pregnancy. Which means that we were supposed to have twins but for whatever reason one twin got confused from the beginning of it's development and formed the placenta instead of a baby like it is supposed to. Since the cells that make up a baby are not supposed to be the placenta these pregnancies end around 9-11 weeks. If that isn't enough. Once this happens there is a risk that I could have cancer from this now. I was not allowed to try and get pregnant for 6 months from the date my pregnancy hormones (hcg) dropped to 0. I had to go for weekly then monthly testing until we were cleared to make sure I did not develop cancer from all of this. Nothing like losing a baby and wanting another one so bad and having to go for pregnancy tests and praying for a negative when everything in you is screaming for it to be a positive result with a healthy baby at the end.

We got through that and in January of '06 we found out I was pregnant again. Talk about gun shy and being scared that this would go bad too is an understatement to how we felt. I wouldn't tell anyone outside my husband, my mom and a close friend until I was past the point that I lost the last baby at. I wouldn't even go to the dr till then.

On September 28th 2006 we had a healthy,happy and beautiful baby boy we named Connor Scott. The Connor was because we loved the name and I am Scottish and the Scott because it was my late grandfather's middle name. We were/are so happy. He is such a good baby. We really couldn't have asked for a better temperament on a baby. He is great and we are ecstatic.

The other kids are doing well. The 2 older ones are dealing with the normal learning and pitfalls young adults face daily. My daughter and oldest will be turning 21 in a few months (talk about feeling old), my son turned 18 in December (remember that attitude? I am 18 and I can do what I want!). Our little girl we had before baby has just turned 7. Talk about a handful. She is my wild child. You never know what is going to come out of her mouth at any time and there is no way you can try to figure out what she is going to do next. We love her but boy what a handful!

As for me. My health has been pretty much status quo. I have bee having some major flare ups because of the weather and just the amount of stress we are going through right now (read CONNOR'S JOURNEY on blogger to read about that story)

http://connorsjourney-kim.blogspot.com

My dr has me on the max narcotic he wants me on at this time. I am taking that new long acting morphine Kadian 100mg 1x/day, MS IR 15mg q 8hrs, Soma 350mg q8hrs, Zoloft 50mg 1x/day and Neurontin 600mg q 8hrs. It isn't helping all that much so he is talking about doing a block to try to get the fare up under control. I am going to go ahead with it as long as he does the facet joint injections in my neck he was talking about for my migraines. May as well do it all while am knocked out (there is no way they are going near me with a needle in my back while I am awake!!). I didn't have an epidural with any of the 4 kids because my fear of needles in the back far outweighs my few of labor pain!!

My stim isn't on right now. The leads have migrated and to get any help from it I need it sent so high that now I get major muscle pains in my back. I don't know what I am going to do about it yet I haven't made any decisions as to having it replaced and an attempt to reset the leads or to just say enough. My hubby and I are still talking that one out. It is a shame because for awhile there I really did get help from the thing.

Nothing much more to report. I will post as time allows and things come up. I have alot going on right now. All you have to do is read the above link and you will understand. Thank you for keeping with me when I haven't written is such a long time. I promise to try to do better.